淑 • 舍

What can fly?

2011-04-07T05:10:00.004+08:00

I was practicing "imaginations & associations" with Damien that evening.

Mommy: Damien, bird can fly; airplane can fly. Can you think of something else that can fly?
Damien : ULTRAMAN!

(if the same question appears in the exam, will the teacher mark him correct? i wonder.)

Mr. Hellboy

2010-12-16T10:35:00.014+08:00

Damien is so much into superhero movies like ultraman, batman, incredible hulk, transformers...u name it...that he likes to imitate them all the time.

Recently, he's hellboy.

He carries the "Hellboy gun" wherever he goes, sleep with the gun as shown in "Hellboy II" and sing or hum "Can't smile without You" all the time

(one of the Hellboy soundtracks)...

Damien (aka Hellboy)

One day, he came telling me again, as usual, with his "Hellboy gun",

"Mommy, I am Hellboy".

I laughed.

He then said pointing at me "You are Princess Nuala."

Mommy aka Princess Nuala

Huh?? Haha...okok...not bad...as i know he likes the Princess.

(just doubted why not Liz Sherman as that is Hellboy's Wife)

I then asked out of curiosity, "What is daddy then?"

He thought for a while...and replied....

"Daddy is Mr. Wink"

Daddy turned to us with a duh expression from his working table and I burst out laughter....wahhahahhaa.....

why?

becoz Mr. Wink looks like this...

Daddy aka Mr. Wink

The same weekend, we returned to my parent's place and i told my family about the story.

Everyone laughed as expected.

My younger bro (Hofun) asked Damien, "Damien, damien, u are hellboy, mommy is Princess Nuala, daddy is Mr. Wink, then what is Kao Fu Zai?".

Haha...i bet he must be expecting answers like Prince Nuada or the Fish (Abraham Sapien).

Anyway...we were all waiting anxiously....

Damien: You, you, you.......

you, you, you.......

you are Dai Fan Shu la!.....

Hofun aka Dai Fan Shu

( Daddy: whew....Luckily i am Mr. Wink!)

Angel Won

2010-07-12T18:41:00.004+08:00

Devil had been taking charge for so long, recently angel is back from vacation.

I had been complaining so much in the past and strange enough, things did change soon after my complaint. No, not me, i didnt do anything nor voiced out. It was just miracle to me and because of that, i felt guilt.

Mil made adjustment to her daily timetable, placing her yoga class to 5.30pm til 8 or 9 and take care of damien from the time he wakes up or latest 11am. That spares me around 7 hours each day for my work.

Had been so stress with work lately that i began to cherish my mil's effort.

The angel just appeared again, knowing that she is such a simple lady who could be extremely happy with small things, tell me is time to get her a lil pressie as gratitude.

Surprise!

2010-07-09T13:03:00.002+08:00

The little one is giving us lots of surprise recently.

scene 1

grandma: hurry up damien, finish your rice and we'll go and "make" your bicycle.

damien : "REPAIR!!"

granema: oh...okok..."repair"..not "make"...

scene 2

damien: mommy, come sit here. watch damien play.

mommy: no, mommy is tired. mommy will rest here ok?

damien: don wan...mommy come here!

mommy: no..i don wan...

damien: (yell angrily) U DON'T COME I BEAT YOUR BUTTOCK HA~!

(that's what i am telling him all the time)

mommy: ........

okok....mommy come....

scene 3

i was preparing milk for damien and found out i poured too much of hot water.

mommy: wait damien, mommy poured too much of hot water...let me mix with cold water first.

damien: mommy dumb dumb....

mommy: .....

Not again.

2010-05-31T16:51:00.004+08:00

She was at home early in the morning. I thought, finally i get to work peacefully today! hurray!

So as usual...get things prepared, and headed out for breakfast, returning at around 12 today.

She fed damien some porridge that was cooked earlier in the morning, and put him to sleep.

From 12am - 3pm, i worked happily....

3pm- damien knocked at the door again...So basically she only took care of him from 12-1pm (as he slept from 1pm-3pm mar). Gosh...i knew i couldn't carry on. I brought him down, tell him mommy has to work infront of her. She asked damien why did he wake up so early and then turned into the kitchen. Apparently she's cooking today and i'll have to take care of the lil one. As usual. I doubted, when i was working from 9am-7pm last time...how did she cook? why do i have to take care of him almost the whole day when she wants to cook that day? and what about my work that brings in money?

I'm not pissed today. I'm calm enuff as I completed part of my work (better than none like the days before). But i'm totally imbalance that we are paying her to take care of him. Not much though, but that's more that what i get for now as i've been taking care of my child most of the time ever since i started to work at home.

5pm. she asked me to bring damien down and she'll feed him porridge becoz her fav tv drama started mar..so she can feed and at the same time enjoy her fav show. I brought him down, and i noticed the cooking was done. I can be a fortune teller, that i know she'll bring damien to me when damien finishes his meal coz she'll be there infront of the TV till around 7 or 8. At around 6pm i'll have to take care of damien again till tomorrow morning.

Talked to a friend just now via msn. I'll search for schools from now on and send damien there asap. At least he gets to learn something from school rather than wasting his time at home doing nothing.

Piss-ful day!

2010-05-26T14:48:00.002+08:00

It's another piss-ful day!

I'm too tired with all...I won't blame anymore, neither will i mumble in front of dom again....

That is not the root of problem solving. We're always in a dilemma.

Letting him know = creating arguement again (either between us or between family)

That's not what i want.

Damien woke me up again at 9. I was fine.

Played with him, fed him, bathed him, and brought him downstairs for cartoon...until mil returned around 10 something. (Like what i did most of the time).

Like the day b4, i tot of asking mil to pack my breakfast for me, but today she asked me to go along as they wont take long. So i changed and followed them.

As expected...we returned around 1. No work had been done the whole morning.

(Never mind, mil will put damien to sleep and i'll get to work in the afternoon.)

As we stepped into the house, damien wanted to poo....

Alright...that wont take long...mil went elsewhere that i couldn't find her...so i'll do it.

It was around 1.30 when he's done and i'd cleaned him up.

Ready for a nap now. (whew, finally i could start work)

As usual, the "morning" sickness attacked again after meal. I felt so uncomfortable.

I prayed hard, hope damien will doze off real soon.

Things just won't go the way we want it to be. He was super active then. Jumping, rolling, throwing all the pillows down and scattered all his toys all around.

The worst part was....i felt a tornado in my tummy! mahu berak lar!

So i showed him an angry face...told him i felt so unwell and i'll ask Mah-mah to take care of him. I went down to the living room, the kitchen and the garden...no one was there! DAMN! They went out without informing. (I told her i had to work)

So how? I have to endure the morning sickness together with the tornado, smiled at the monkey jumping up and down in front of me. For the first time, I begged him. Yes...I begged him, please, stop jumping and rolling....please sleep...

But then hor, he found it funny when i begged him...and he thought i was playing with him...and he jumped higher, rolled more! I calmed myself...laid down and asked him to do the same. I told him mommy is sick...please sleep. He stood up, and brought me the comforter...that was sweet but definitely won't help.

The war ended around 3pm. I finally saw the light at the end of the tunnel. He slept. I rushed to the loo.

I feel better now. Not my tummy. My blood stopped boiling I mean.

I knew I couldn't work again today. Can, may be for 2 hours when he's still sleeping soundly.

When the monster revive, more damages will be done.

I shall thank god that i do not have datelines to rush today. Or i'll be the one jumping up and down. (and that always happen). Still, most of the time, it gets on my nerves as i always get interruptions when i am in the middle of something. I am a very conservative person and i follow steps 1,2,3....like what special agent oso taught. (Watch too much cartoon with damien d) I hate it when i have to reschedule everything when i thought things were so well planned earlier.

Solution: I planned to send damien to preschool when he turns 3 so he'll get to mix around with more friends and learn more in school. Most importantly, i have more time to concentrate on work. Money won't come flying into my pocket when i just sit and watch cartoon with Damien. Mil strongly disagree with the idea. She said it's stressful for him to be in school at that young age. Why not let him play around first and send him there when he turns 4. Initially, i agreed with her. But not anymore now. After everything I've been through, for a year to be specific, i know i have to stick with my plan.

Case closed.

P/s: Anger released. Felt better.

Confirmed.

2010-05-11T13:07:00.001+08:00

Confirmed. And I am glad.

2010-05-06T14:36:00.011+08:00

Damien is 2 year old and 2 months +...

These are a lil something from my notebook (the written one).

These are words he knows despite of the cantonese and mandarin wordings.

How can i not proud of this lil rascal?

Was truly heartache when people commented on me

when i sent damien to shichida 2 years back.

Comments are still around but are all of my ignorance now.

One told me only lousy parents send their child to school that early

becoz they can't even handle or teach kids of their own.

OK. So i am "that" lousy parents.

Tell me the same when u are a father or mother ok?

I never like comparison among kids.

Some told me damien is such a fast learner, unlike his/her child, so slow...

A year older than damien and still can't express himself well with words...

Do not forget, Albert Einstein started to talk at the age of 5!

Vice Versa. Of coz, it gets me on my nerves when i heard parents telling me,

"what? your son can't do this yet?...can't do that yet?...

Oh...my lil one did that when he/she was smaller"

"阿嫂，唔通练过如来神掌都话过你知咩！？"

Damien might be slow in something, but he has his own strength and ability.

No one is perfect. So don't pick bone from an egg.

感动。

2009-07-21T09:01:00.006+08:00

这是他，也是我的第一个Tiffany。
他或许不懂，我的感动并不来自于礼物。
而是，他为我制造惊喜的心思，
和他那默默努力，为了要让我们过得更好的决心。

淑。说

2009-05-20T08:39:00.015+08:00

陪她10分钟

男人是位出租车司机，白天在外到处奔波，
晚上回到家里已是疲惫不堪。
偏偏女人一见他回来，总喜欢缠着他说个没完。
而他，只是勉强地应上几声。

时间长了，女人渐渐地恼了，一如往常地买菜做饭，
却很少理他，脾气开始变的暴躁。
为他用完东西没有放回原处，
为他回家后未能及时换鞋子，为他偶尔抽了一只烟……

为了这些鸡毛蒜皮的小事，女人常常对他大动肝火。

这样的日子让他越来越郁闷，甚至有一种窒息的痛苦。
他不懂，自己在外拼死拼活，不就是为了让她过得舒服一点吗？
为什么她一点儿都不能理解自己呢？

有一天午休时，他和一位老司机聊天，
说起自己对婚姻的失望。
老司机轻轻拍了拍他的肩膀：
“兄弟，以后回家无论多累，都要打起精神陪她聊聊天，
不要多，十分钟就够了。”

那能有用吗？他将信将疑。
那天下班回家后，尽管他依然很累，
可他还是满脸笑容地喊了一句：
“老婆，我回来了。”
女人丛厨房里探出头，淡淡地回了一句：
“回来了。”

换好衣服，他没有向往常那样陷在沙发里，而是去了厨房：
“老婆你辛苦了，我来吧。”

“你会干什么？”
女人不屑地问了一句，但还是随手丢给他一根葱：
“剥好洗洗。

那一天，站在厨房里，他给女人讲着车队里的种种趣闻，
讲着自己遇到的各种乘客，甚至还提到自己小时侯的一些事情。
女人一边应着，一边不停的炒菜。

晚餐桌上，女人难得往他的碗里夹了许多他爱吃的菜：
“你跑车辛苦，多吃点儿。”

一晚上，他们边吃边聊，他感到一种从未有过的舒畅。
晚饭后，他刚要伸手去收拾碗筷，女人挡住了：
“我来吧，你累了一天，好好歇歇。”
女人端着碗筷去了厨房，哗哗的水声传了出来。
与之相伴的，是久违了的女人的歌声。

也就是丛那天起，他每天下班回家总是先陪女人聊天，给她打下手，
听她说些单位里的大事小事。
坚持一段时间后，他便发现，往往没聊上十分钟，
女人便将他往厨房外赶：
“跑了一天早就累坏了，快去歇歇吧。”
更让他惊喜的是，她对他越来越体贴了。

爱她，那就用心的陪陪她，不要多，十分钟就够了。

＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊

还是单身的某年，受伤后我告诉友人，
“真想找个爱和我聊天的男人结婚。
他不爱说话没关系，最重要的是，
他肯听我把心里话说完。”

很多人觉得这是小女人情怀，但对于我来说，
沟通是感情中一道最重要的桥梁。
生活上的压力太多了，都把它压在心里，
暴发时，破坏力是难以想像的。

祝我生日快乐。

2009-04-29T07:55:00.003+08:00

一早醒来，我期待着温馨的那一句。
可是。。。没有。

今天，公司里，人手不足。
我忙呀忙，电话信息响个不停。
我希望。。。可是没有。

终于放工了。
回到家，女佣走了，
我得打饭捧汤，还要洗碗碟。
忙完了，是时候陪陪孩子。
电话还是响个不停，
可我就连看个信息的时间都没有。

十二点了。
孩子睡了。
我也累了。
不等了。

生日快乐，
玮，
晚安。

大话精。

2009-04-22T07:58:00.003+08:00

不知怎么了，自出来社会谋生后一直都有大话精在身边。
最令我费解的是我发现他们所编的谎言并没有为他们带来些什么益处。
相反，他们需要更多的谎言来延续。

就比如说曾经有个同事因偷懒而拿病假。
告诉同事们说他严重食物中毒，呕吐及腹泻不停。
第二天上班时，他竟然可以把戏演得出神入化。。
一副“脱水”样，拖着几乎没有骨头的身躯，要死要死的样子。。。
我这唯一知道真相的人，差一点就站起来拍手叫好！
最可恶的就是同事们都视他病人般呵护，而他就拿正牌吩咐 “谁。。谁。。谁”做事。
我看在眼里，心里却很想揭穿他的嚣张。
当同事们也吩咐我要照顾他，还要我为他倒杯热水时，
我拿着那杯水，仿佛拿着万支箭猛往自己身上插一样！

他装，至少我看到了他从谎言中得到的。

我最近遇到了大话精中的王。
毫无理由的撒谎骗身边的人。
就连明明午餐吃咖里面，他都要骗说吃了不好吃的鸡饭！
还说鸡饭Uncle找少了钱。
明明刚和家人从北部旅游，却说和朋友到了南部去。
偏偏，又让我有意和无意间发现真相。
我摸不清编织谎言的理由，更不明白这些人脑袋里装着些什么。

大话精族群们，歇一歇吧。
我都看累了。。
你们不累吗？

这样就好。

2009-04-02T09:10:00.002+08:00

很喜欢现在的生活。
过得很充实。
不多不少，这样刚刚好。

超着目标走，感觉更有意义。

2009-03-26T21:50:00.004+08:00

新年的某天。。。
我兴高采烈的拿着他送我的Starbucks记事本，
对着他一一陈述我这一年定下的目标，
感觉好有成就感！

上星期的某天。。。
我才发现他其实也为自己设定了一些目标，
而他最希望的，就是实现我的梦想。
我因此高兴了好多天。

其实，
我故意从我的目标中念少了一项，
也就是助他达成愿望。

第一个生日。

2009-02-26T23:10:00.008+08:00

太久太久没在部落格留字了。

我家相公出国办事了; 我又因为感冒不能照顾Damien，
突然多出了些事间，心血来潮想写些什么的，
但却又不知从何写起。

Damien 一岁了！
上个星期为Damien搞了个简单而隆重的第一个生日派对。
整个星期都忙的透不过气来。相公更因忙碌及睡眠不足病倒了。
当晚还红了鼻子，流着鼻涕两行来招待客人。
我不善于招待客人，但也忙的头昏昏的。
忙归忙，看着那小瓜开心的模样，真的再辛苦也值得。
派对过后，我俩心里暖暖的，没说什么，却会会心一笑。
（开始有老夫老妻的默契了哦？）
原来为孩子付出，是如此的开心。

当然，也谢谢当晚的来宾。

没有你们，这派对不会如此的成功！
谢谢！

B•R•O•K•E!

2009-01-14T11:16:00.006+08:00

I, Yong Sook Mei, LOUDLY declare that i am BROKE! BROKE BROKE BROKE...

After all the trips, outing and shopping spree...and there i am, without a single cent to live another day. Looking at the trips planned ahead, i shrug...and just kept walking, with empty pocket.

a meaningful talk...

2008-10-13T08:48:00.013+08:00

Date: 12 Oct 2008
Venue: Corus Hotel

I attended the parental course at the date and venue stated as above with my lovely hubby. I never knew this talk would influence me so much and it actually plucked up something that had been deeply-rooted in mind all this long.

The talk was organized by Shicida Method. The place where we sent Damien for brain development programme and all parents were encouraged to attend.

Ever since Dom blogged about Damien's first lesson in Shicida, i received calls from friends (mommies) to get to know more about wat damien is doing in class. And most of their reaction was "common, he's just a 7 months old baby and why are u as parent putting all the hopes and stress on him trying to work him a genius?". To be frank, i felt blade slicing my heart when i heard comments like this.

I am sending Damien to this programme because i have seen results from it. To avoid damien to learn from stress, i've done researches both by interview and via internet. It is a place where damien learn with less stress and more joy. Stress appears ONLY when we as parents are looking forward for achievements (eagerly)! Let them do watever they want, do not hope for return, and they'll gain more than u can imagine.

I am not hoping that damien would turn a doctor, lawyer, accountant or etc...etc...who makes big money. I want him to live happily..and that's it. So why am i sending him there? I can most probably tender my resignation and play with him all day long, pamper him 24 hours daily and no doubt, he'll be very happy with it. View it long, he'll turn a spoil brat if i did that.

The talk has inputed me with all the positive facts. Why on earth am i bothering with wat's whispering into my ears? I know wat's good for my child. He's my child and i have my own way to raise him.

心情。

2008-09-29T09:16:00.000+08:00

好开心，好开心，好开心！

Damien's Shicida Enrollment

2008-09-04T09:14:00.003+08:00

Gone to Wisma Lim Foo Yong last Saturday to pay up Damien's enrollment fees.
Gosh! This is really draining me!

Classes will start on 4th of Oct.
MY BOY IS GOING TO SCHOOL!

新生活！

2008-07-10T08:53:00.004+08:00

自丢信起，我像囚犯罪满从获自由般从新心生活了！

第一件我最最想做的，就是照顾我的小奕名！
以前由于常工作至蛮晚的，第二天一早又爬起来上班，
家婆担心我太累，夜里都替我照顾小奕名。
那段时间，我一星期见他的时间真的少之又少。
如今我每晚抱着这小瓜入睡，又再次感觉到当妈妈的喜悦。。
夜里看着他熟睡的笑，真是看在眼里，甜在心里。。。

很感激公司对我的体谅。。
在这工作了两年多，从未婚至今，我们已像家人般无话不谈。
除熬夜不说，我真的好喜欢这里。

如今有了时间，我开始要为自己做些规划。。。
有太多太多的事情要完成。
不能浪费时间，一刻都不可怠慢！

终于踏出那一步

2008-06-18T08:55:00.012+08:00

深思熟虑了好久，终于有了决定。。

昨晚我踏出了那一步。
聊了好久，结果。。。

或许很多人都对我很失望，但我想留的心是大过于离开的。
或许哪天我会后悔，
但要我放弃，
我会遗憾一辈子。

多给自己一些时间再决定。。。

支持环保，保护地球。

2008-05-14T09:36:00.007+08:00

看着四川地震的新闻，心好疼。。。好疼。。

缅甸风灾，四川地震，西藏 3-14 事件，米荒。。

人类们還沒覺醒嗎？請別再傷害地球了，好嗎？

平日顺手关个灯，购物时尽可能不用胶袋，别浪费食物。。。

爱护地球，并不难啊！

哇唠耶~

2008-04-09T17:37:00.006+08:00

四月五日天晴

今天一早就和家公，家婆带着小奕名到小儿科打预防针。

医生说。。。。。奕名他。。。。超重了!

呵呵~

靓妈部落格~

2008-02-08T22:47:00.000+08:00

Cat send me this link via msn one day and said it might be helpful for me as a soon-to-be-mom. Was busy with work in the office so without hesitation, i bookmarked the link...and it lies there for weeks...

One fine day, i opened it out of bore. Discovered that it's a blog that belongs to a hong kong celebrity. Frankly, she's not my favourite celebs, but I found it interesting and she did provide some useful tips regarding maternity, confinement, motherhood and etc....so i thought of sharing it here.

Never knew that a pregnant mom can be so attractive until i see this.
http://blog.sina.com.cn/wenghong

(Pic taken from wenghong's blog)
See!! This is so sweet~~!
I swear i'll take pic like this next time as well!

a sleepless nite....

2008-02-06T04:34:00.000+08:00

i'm truly disappointed...

things in life just wont turn out like u want it to be....

i need to be more independent...

怀胎九月

2008-02-04T08:54:00.000+08:00

转眼尖，已九个月了。。。
很快就可以和宝宝见面。
想起当初我俩结婚快一年都还没怀孕，还真担心不孕。
心想多一个月我们就只好去求医了。

就在这时，我突然呕吐不停。
以为胃病又发作！
知道自己怀孕的那一个早上我俩都高兴得不得了！

话说起来，那前三个月还真难熬。。。
因为呕吐，头晕。。。我还辛苦得哭了好几次！
华人习俗在怀孕未足三个月时，除了家人以外，都不可向外透漏。
在朋友们面前，如有任何不适，还得说谎。。。
食物方面，最难熬的就是戒掉我最爱的白咖啡！
还有辛辣食物！！牛肉！羊肉！快餐！即食面！冷饮！！！
天哪！！！

上个月和Dom逛金和广场，下电梯时前面有一对很年轻的夫妻。
女的走在前面，男的抱着大概一岁多的孩子跟在后。小孩的脸就正好面向着我俩。
小孩的头部肿了个大泡，嘴部上下都是伤口和干了的血印。。。
宝宝一直哭个不停。爸爸一气之下，拿了一颗 mentols 一样白色的糖果就往宝宝嘴里塞！
那么小，他怎么会吃！？？？
我想，他们应该是搞大后结婚的吧。
我们看着，多么的心疼。。

最近很多人都问道，：“会很紧张吗？会怕吗？担心吧？”
其实不然。。。
生孩子痛已是难免。。那还有什么好怕？
我反而担心我俩到底照顾得来吗？要怎么教导？
我们会是称职的父母吗？
最近我们的话题都离不开宝宝。。。
开始为他做很多的计划。不但为他挑衣选鞋，连他要上些什么课程也都想好了！
怎么省，也不能苦了孩子。
育儿，真的是门高深的学问！

儿啊，
爸妈并不要求你长大后多有出息。。。
也不需要你赚很多很多的钱。。。
只要你平平安安，健健康康，快快乐乐。。。

I'm bored

2008-01-23T21:02:00.000+08:00

wat a boring holiday....

Finally....I've gain...

2007-12-12T22:59:00.000+08:00

6th month of my pregnancy...

Baby....i'll get to see you real soon. Your daddy can't wait any longer already...haha..

Be healthy and continue your powerful kick ya.

比较。

2007-10-30T09:09:00.000+08:00

为什么要作比较？
比较，会带给你快乐吗？
发现你比别人好，你会珍惜吗？还是更骄傲？
那，相反的，你又要埋怨了吗？觉得不公平了吗？

朋友啊，
我不相信世上有所谓的十全十美。
更不觉得“比较”会使你更完美。
今天你好，但一山还有一山高，更好的人大有所在。。。
你埋怨，可是比你更糟的又怎样？
赢，真的那么重要吗？
赢一场战，背后损失了多少，你都看到了吗？

知足长乐啊朋友！
祝你幸福。

简单的幸福

2007-10-11T23:34:00.000+08:00

工作压力真的好大。。。

我每次都在想，人生并不会样样都合我意的。
我想要的，几乎都有了。。。
稍微一些些的工作不顺利，就当作是交换幸福的一个条件吧。

很多人都说婆媳之间，总是像水和油般，永远不能融洽的混在一起。
我也曾担心过婚后会和家婆不和。
但嫁过来已一年了。她对我的照顾可说是无微不至。甚至是有增无
减。朋友们常听我讲起，都觉得很不可思议。
有时我还会内疚，觉得自己妄为人媳妇。
想起刚才吃的一顿饭，每一道菜她都先确定我喜欢吃才点的。
我真是不知前世休了些什么福。。。

***********************************************************************************

那晚，我笨笨的跑到你工作岗位等你收工。
却不知原来你们在忙着搬“店”。
你也蠢蠢的不知道我其实不应逗留在那。
你过后听同事讲起，才连忙带我离开。
我不知道你听了些什么。但我非常清楚你并不是个迷信的人。
可是那晚，你竟然担心得睡不着。
平时不拿香的你，还跪在菩萨面前，沉默了好久，才拜拜。
我从未看过这样的你。在我心里，你是个天不怕地不怕的人。
这次，你却为了我和宝宝，担心成这样。
当时看着你的我，心里暖暖的，差点就笑了出来。。。

28-09-07

2007-09-27T09:41:00.000+08:00

好紧张！答案快揭晓罗！！

累了。。。

2007-08-25T00:28:00.000+08:00

好累。。。

除了服装界以外，在广告/设计界都做两年多了。
辞去之前的工作因为常熬夜至天亮。
以为脱离苦海的我又堕入了另一个地狱。

坦白说，现在这间公司的确学到的很多。
更有机会尝试很多新的东西。
但就是要常常熬夜。
从上班至今的一年里，就算有多赶时间我都未曾试过“准时”六点半放工。
真正的属于自己的时间只有星期六、天。

朋友少联络了。没时间做些自己想做的事情。
我发现自己除了工作以外，其他的都在退步。

很想辞职。但如果又回到广告界，我不是还一样的在原地踏步？
还是我一开始就入错行？？
想找份朝九晚五的in house 设计工作。
又怕永远停留在这个阶段。。
难哪！

wish u were here.....

2007-07-17T19:50:00.000+08:00

I vomitted on Saturday nite. The night u were to fly to Spain.
And the night hadnt been any better since then.
Flu, sorethroats, cough and fever came all in the same time becoz they knew u ain't around.

Fever just wont leave me alone till tues morning.
Doc said it could be harmful if the fever just wont go.
I had 2 days MC. Slept for more than 18 hours daily from Sat. till Tues.
Feel much more better now...but it was a hard time for me for the past 72hrs.

whew...it's almost gone now but the meds make me feel so numb...

mom joke n said, this is 相思病.

往事。

2007-07-07T13:14:00.000+08:00

大概在我十、十一岁左右，
有一次我手拿着一卷长长的麻将纸，
追着妹妹玩着闹。
跑呀跑，手晃呀晃。
“霹砰”，我把梁上的一盏灯给打破了。
我呆了一会儿，眼看周围没人，连忙丢下“凶器“，逃离现场躲到房里。
就在我转身离开的同时，我隐约的听到弟弟的声音。
“哇！地上很多玻璃啊！”
不久，我听到了爸爸和婆婆的声音。
“是不是你弄破的！？”
弟弟呆呆的站着，没有回答，就像似个做错事的小孩般。
接下来就是爸爸手上的藤条声和弟弟的哭泣声。。。
过后我也没认罪。就让大家以为是弟弟做的。

这件往事至今已没人记得。可却深深的刻在我脑海里。
我总觉得弟弟其实是看到我逃离现场的。他怎么不说？
至少，也说不是他打破的啊！

2007 年，“黑狗偷吃，白狗当灾” 的故事又再度上演。
这次，我选择了认罪。
可是。。。白狗已遍体鳞伤。。。

感慨。

2007-05-21T18:54:00.000+08:00

不喜欢的东西，你可以扔掉。
不喜欢的动物，你可以弃置不理。
不喜欢的工作，你大可辞职。
不喜欢的食物，你可以搁着。
讨厌的人，你可以哼一声转头离开。
讨厌的朋友，你可以不再联络。

你至亲至爱的人，把你的心给深深伤害以后，你还可以怎样？

有一种伤害，是一辈子的。

阿鸿上菜！

2007-05-12T16:09:00.000+08:00

Hohoho...wat a coincidence....
yes...it's about VEGE again....

Forced myself out of bed at 5 am this Saturday morning...which i rarely do..
just for this photo shootin session.

This is the second time i get myself so close...to a star...
The first time was around january with Nancy Sit.
I was so nervous working with a star and i acted clumsily for my lack of experience.

This time...a lil better i must say.
Not becoz i've gained experience from the previous one....all becoz i've got 2 more colleagues to help me out...haha!

Everything went on smoothly...and joyous cheers to the whole crew for another succession of our shootin.

最近恋上.....种菜

2007-05-07T20:34:00.000+08:00

最近严重的迷上PSP的Innocent Life...

开始玩时很无聊.每天种了菜就让主角睡觉.
可是越玩就越多宝藏要找,越多mission要complete.
甚至有时一天都不够用....很多东西要放弃。

我发现.....人长大了,要顾虑的事情也跟着增加。

小孩只需要吃得饱，睡得好。
直到念书时要兼顾考试。
长大些不但要把工作做好，还要烦感情这东西。
要扛起整个家呢？
年纪大了，上要照顾父母，下有孩儿。
更惨的还有的还养宠物。
真的都能兼顾得完吗？

我常常觉得，要成功，就必须牺牲时间，在年轻还能学更多时，拿最多的经验。
至少在我年纪大时，还能凭着经验过活而不至于被社会淘汰。
可是......
在我牺牲时间的同时...我发现...我错过了许多...

婚后，我有两个家。
很幸运地，我有两个好爱我的家。
所以，每个周末，我都希望留给他们。
最近，家里发生了一些事情。
弟妹不和...两个妹妹感情与工作都不顺利。
我难过自己不能抽时间回家陪陪他们...

我还有一群好姐妹。
两天前她们特地从老远来到我家和我吃一顿迟来的生日大餐，
一聊之下我赫然发现她们经历了很多事情，
喜、怒、哀、乐....我都未能参与....

已经多久没看一场戏了？
多久没看电视、报纸？
上次和朋友“褒电话粥” 是几时？

他常常因为担心我的健康而与我争吵.....
常常等我至三更半夜....
常常一个人吃晚餐.....
常常独自在家寻找娱乐.....
我都知道......

人生....真的是必须取舍吗？

peng说得对....

人生总有太多的遗憾.....

遺失的那一塊。

2007-03-28T09:39:00.000+08:00

記得，包租公出外工干時，包租婆說沒他的日子很難過。
由其是夜里入眠前感覺更是澎湃。
我倒怎麼想也想不通。沒遇上他之前，還不是單身過了那麼多日子嗎？

最近，我開始了解了。
他不在時，總是覺得少了些什麼。
就像在辦公桌上擺了很久的裝飾品，你突然把它給拿走，那一天就是混身不舒服。就是看不順眼。
更別說是在夜里身邊少了整整一大塊肉。真是怎麼輾轉都難眠啊！

it's cold...

2007-03-26T08:56:00.000+08:00

truth doesn't seem to be truth anymore..
promises don't mean a thing..

i'm depressed. very.

What's goin on?

2007-03-14T12:17:00.000+08:00

It's kinda difficult for me to associate my thoughts with the society of this decade.

A single lady of her late 30 finally discovered she got pregnant.
At that very moment, the man wish to marry her.
This should be the very happy ending like it's shown in those TVB drama.
But..she refused.

A newly get along couple went for a concert.
It was their first date.
It's late at nite when the concert is over.
The gal requested to spend a nite at the guy's place.
So he brought the gal home..tidy up the guests room...for the gal..
but...she insist on sleepin with him...

A loving couple who seems so sweet being together in everyone's eyes...
At her back, he said she isn't the one for him...

These happens around me and apparently brought me into deep serious thoughts.
Am i too conservative over all these issue and making superfluous remarks?
I think the society is sick. Where are our conciousness??

豬的愛情。

2007-03-07T09:36:00.000+08:00

從前有兩隻小豬，整天過著無憂無慮的生活，他們互相相愛著。每天主人送來吃的時候，公豬總是先讓母豬吃，等她吃飽了再上去吃母豬吃剩下的東西。每天晚上公豬總是給母豬放哨，他生怕主人乘他們熟睡時把母豬拉出去宰了。

日子一天天的過去，母豬日漸長胖，而公豬則一天天瘦下去。有一天，公豬突然聽見主人在跟屠夫商量，要把長勢見長的母豬殺了給賣掉，公豬傷心至極。於是從那天開始公豬性情大變，每當主人送吃來時公豬總搶上去把東西吃的一乾二淨，每天吃後便躺下大睡，並且告訴母豬現在換做她來放哨，如果他發現她沒放哨的話就再也不理她。

漸漸的日子一天天過去，母豬覺得公豬越來越不在乎她，母豬失望了，而公豬還是若無其事的過著安樂日子．很快一個月過去了，主人帶著屠夫來到豬圈，他發現一個月前肥肥壯壯的母豬瘦的沒剩下多少肉，而公豬則長的油光發亮．這時的公豬拼命的奔跑，想引起主人的注意，表明他是頭健康的豬。

終於，屠夫把公豬拖出豬圈的那一刻，公豬朝著母豬笑著說：『以後別吃這麼多！』母豬傷心欲絕，拼命的沖出去，但圈門被主人關上了，擱著柵欄，母豬看著閃著淚光的公豬。那晚，母豬望著主人一家開心的吃著豬肉，母豬傷心的躺倒在以前公豬每天睡的地方，突然她發現牆上有行字：

『如果愛無法用言語來表達，我願意用生命來證明』！

幸福。

2007-03-06T08:50:00.000+08:00

生命裡，有很多幸福的角落。
也許，它沒有豪華排場、也非人間仙境、更不是瑰麗天堂……
但它確確實實是幸福的所在。

the year of “豬”

2007-02-27T09:55:00.000+08:00

It's the 2nd werkin day after chinese new year holiday.
Everthing goes back to normal.
Sien.

Mr. Poon flew straight to Kota Kinabalu 2 days after our Korea trip.
And i gotta struggle with living and werk all alone for this damn 3 days.
No one for me to nag, to complain and to talk to for 72 hours!
U really gotta know that women MUST speak for at least 6000 words daily.

Havta carry on with my werk d. :(
Tomorrow is the due date. I'm pretty sure that i'll have to werk late today.

sigh......
that's the life of a designer...

去年今天。

2007-02-14T09:24:00.000+08:00

活到２６歲，我都不曾過過有情人的情人節。
家中的老二，老三和老四,甚至老友們，老早在情海裡遊著各種花式了。
身為老大，親友的“肺腑之言”你是可以想像得到的．．．

２００６年的情人節，是我‘終於’有机會慶祝的第一個情人節。
也是我單身的最後一個情人節。
他選擇了這一天給了我一個好大好大的驚喜。
收買了我妹及好朋友。

那一天，真的好難忘。

今年的情人節，我們都得加班。
只能很匆忙的抽出一個半小時用個餐。
過後他繼續回到崗位工作，我也回家休息。

雖然只是那麼一餐，對我來說，很夠了。
因為我知道，他多忙，多累，都肯老遠的跑來就為了和我吃一餐。
因為他重視這一餐。
女人不就是那麼簡單的動物嘍。

男人，不一定要很昂貴的禮物，才能讓女人心動。
不一定要給她豪華大宅，名貴房車，鮑參翅肚，才叫“給她幸福"。
（當然，有的話會是bonus。哈哈！）

不要！不能！不可以！！

2007-02-09T08:19:00.000+08:00

很少發夢。
昨晚竟然鮮少地發了個很可怕的夢。
在夢裡我無助的吶喊，痛哭．．．
直至驚醒。

夢裡內容，是我在現時生活中最大的恐懼。

是壓力嗎？
還是太累了？

陰天。

2007-02-08T08:24:00.000+08:00

心情壞透了。
怎麼會沒人了解我？
是我要求太過份了嗎？

我厭倦這樣地過每一天。
我真的該學習生活管理了。

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p/s: 淑靖生日快樂！

小病是福？

2007-02-05T16:23:00.000+08:00

病了．．．
在電腦前都不知打了多少次瞌睡。
只差沒把健盤給敲破。

等吧．．．
在等我專用的“儕可伕”載我去找大夫．．．

要快快好起來!
我還要到韓國滑雪呵！

近期之作

2007-01-12T09:31:00.000+08:00

喜歡設計。
家人，朋有都不明白。
我承認工作壓力很大。
但有時侯看著自己努力過后的成績，會覺得有點安慰。

想分享我的小小成績。

攝影當天，我們都手忙腳亂。都沒經驗吧！

還好還是順利完成了。
還有時間來了個大合照！

第三張設計。我一手完成。

老板和顧客都很滿意。
好有成就感！

看戲。

2007-01-08T11:30:00.000+08:00

如要你立刻想一齣你最喜歡，或最印象深刻的戲，你會選哪齣？

昨天看了【日本沉沒】，很好看，很感人。
這是我零柒年的第一齣戲。

有人說這齣戲太“假”。我同意。
可我喜歡戲中的人性。人在遇難時的感情。

二OO七

2007-01-03T13:20:00.000+08:00

和一群 ‘樂魔’腳共渡了很‘樂’的零柒倒數直至凌晨六點。。

淑。記

2006-12-28T10:28:00.000+08:00

婚前的我有寫日記的習慣。
總覺得寫日記就像和知己聊天般，不但能分享秘密、喜怒哀樂，
更能讓我發泄心裡的種種不滿及控訴。
因而更了解自己。

婚後，他已是我的日記。
得听我細訴每天的點滴。
漸漸地，也因工作忙碌，停止了寫日記的習慣。

很喜歡上上朋友的部落，念念他們的文章，不時留留言。
就算不能常見面也了解對方的近況。

因此，我決定要擁有一個屬於自己的部落！
繼續我寫日記的歷程！